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cyan_blueI wrote this a few days ago, but didn't get around to transcribing it into my LJ til now.
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9/11/02
Today I woke at 5:46am to observe the 8:46 EST moment of silence with Emmett, and then I returned to bed, there to dream of seeing a "Twin Towers Memorial Library" in downtown Manhattan. It was a lovely sunlight-shimmering structure, with a large photo picture of the old skyline on its front entrance, and then a more somber memorial mural of the burning WTC next to that. For some reason there was also a large, colorful, startled-looking fish in the mural's foreground. Libraries have always been places of sanctuary and memory for me, so it would make sense for my dream-imagination to concoct a library to house my Twin Towers memories in. The fish, who knows...
Upon wakening, I felt jitters 'til the anniversary morning had passed on both coasts. Then, around 11:30am, when no word had come of the Empire State Building or Golden Gate Bridge being demolished, I felt a great lifting of tension, followed by elation. I saw plane after plane taking off from and landing at SFO, and they seemed to be flying safe and sure and strong. It was really something to be able to feel joy about planes again. One plane seemed to float sideways into the mists of the San Bruno hills, surrounded by the dazzling white wisps of fog bank, sun and sky. It was really pretty.
I passed the highway exit for Emmett's old apartment in Menlo Park, where we were on that morning a year ago when he woke me to tell me the news. I passed by large flags along the highway, some at half-mast and some at full, and I hoped that this is the last of the 9-11 half-mast days. It is important to remember the dead and the wounded, but I also want this to be the day that we go forward, into healing.
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9/14 again
No, we aren't out of the woods yet, but it was good to feel the cycle of the year turn by, to begin afresh. I still do get some jitters. Yesterday I was driving on the Oakland Bay Bridge, and a helicopter swooped past from out of the corner of my vision and did several close dives across one of the bridge towers. I was pretty well freaked by that, and I breathed such a sigh of relief upon getting to the other side. But still... Forward.
L'shana tovah,
Geri
Me in NY Harbor in 1996:
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9/11/02
Today I woke at 5:46am to observe the 8:46 EST moment of silence with Emmett, and then I returned to bed, there to dream of seeing a "Twin Towers Memorial Library" in downtown Manhattan. It was a lovely sunlight-shimmering structure, with a large photo picture of the old skyline on its front entrance, and then a more somber memorial mural of the burning WTC next to that. For some reason there was also a large, colorful, startled-looking fish in the mural's foreground. Libraries have always been places of sanctuary and memory for me, so it would make sense for my dream-imagination to concoct a library to house my Twin Towers memories in. The fish, who knows...
Upon wakening, I felt jitters 'til the anniversary morning had passed on both coasts. Then, around 11:30am, when no word had come of the Empire State Building or Golden Gate Bridge being demolished, I felt a great lifting of tension, followed by elation. I saw plane after plane taking off from and landing at SFO, and they seemed to be flying safe and sure and strong. It was really something to be able to feel joy about planes again. One plane seemed to float sideways into the mists of the San Bruno hills, surrounded by the dazzling white wisps of fog bank, sun and sky. It was really pretty.
I passed the highway exit for Emmett's old apartment in Menlo Park, where we were on that morning a year ago when he woke me to tell me the news. I passed by large flags along the highway, some at half-mast and some at full, and I hoped that this is the last of the 9-11 half-mast days. It is important to remember the dead and the wounded, but I also want this to be the day that we go forward, into healing.
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9/14 again
No, we aren't out of the woods yet, but it was good to feel the cycle of the year turn by, to begin afresh. I still do get some jitters. Yesterday I was driving on the Oakland Bay Bridge, and a helicopter swooped past from out of the corner of my vision and did several close dives across one of the bridge towers. I was pretty well freaked by that, and I breathed such a sigh of relief upon getting to the other side. But still... Forward.
L'shana tovah,
Geri
Me in NY Harbor in 1996:
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Date: 2002-09-17 05:59 am (UTC)